Selfish

I have been thinking about writing this blog post for awhile, but just haven't taken the time to put the words down. I feel selfish at times because I am glad I am the one with all the health issues. I don't really worry about my health that much. There are times I get concerned. I do worry after blood tests or scans as I wait for the results.  I do cry or get upset. I allow myself to have those moments then I move on. I have learned to let myself cry or feel hopeless. Usually it lasts no more than an hour and it is gone. Other than tests time I don't really worry about it. I just know I will be fine.

One day I was thinking I am so glad I have these ailments and not my husband, parents or sister. I would be worried sick if it was them. I feel bad at times because I know they worry. There are times I make a groan or say ouch. Art will usually turn to me immediately asking what is wrong. He wants details about what is wrong. Sometimes it is just simple things like I laid in the same spot to long and my body is sore. Everyone has those issues. 

My main problem is fatigue. I don't feel I have ever bounced back after surgery. I have been soooo tired for a year. I have had numerous issues which would cause fatigue. I am just not use to this. Prior to surgery I was working out 5 days a week, running around the office working like a crazy person, I would come home and do stuff. Well I feel all I can do is just a couple things a day. If it is a work day I go to work, make dinner, make lunches for the next day and lay on the couch. Forget anything else being done. Days off I will do laundry, clean a little and rest. It is frustrating to be this tired. I am 33 not 83. I am slowly learning to listen to my body. I have actually gone home from work early often. I have been working from  home as much as I can. 

Possibly the reason I don't worry so much about my health is because I just know God will take care of things. I told one of my doctors I don't plan to go anywhere and he will be dealing with me for another 50 years. He will retire long before I plan to die. I also think medicine is going to find some type of cure for my ailments. 

Happy Birthday to my Sister!!!

Today Lacey turns a quarter of a century. It is hard to believe 25 years have gone by. Lacey has brought our family so much happiness. She would crack us up as a little kid with the crazy stuff she said. There are still statements we use. When she was around 3 she was complaining how hot she was and that her leg pits were sweating. lol We still talk about our leg pits. 

I am so thankful to call her my sister! I love you! I hope you have a fabulous birthday and year 25 brings you all the happiness you deserve in life!!!

Crack

This is my new crack! It is delish on pretzels, toast, waffles, by the spoonful. It is super delish! Try it out! Or don't try it if you are easily addicted. 

Wordless Wednesday

Diners, Drive Ins & Dives

When I was off work I watched the Food Network daily. I have always liked watching Diners, Drive Ins and Dives. I really get excited when I see Northern California places. Well in the past month I have gone to 2 places. Let me tell you the food is just as amazing in person as it looks on TV. 

Art and I went to Pacifica one weekend. We left early on a Saturday to get in line at Gorilla Barbeque. You have to get there early because they make so much food and when it's gone it's gone. We were the first people waiting in the parking lot. 

We ordered one brisket, sausage and ribs along with mac & cheese and coleslaw. The above picture is maybe a 1/3 of the meal. We split one meal. We eat ate and then had enough for another meal. The brisket and ribs were amazing. I wasn't a big fan of the rice & beans. It was very plain to me. The mac & cheese was delish! It has a crush of Gold Fish crackers. mmmmm

The next place I suggest going to during the day. It is NOT in the best part of San Francisco. 

Show Dogs on Market. It is a couple blocks from Union Square right by some lovely strip clubs. The people in the area are a little shady. Luckily I went with someone from work. We walked rather quickly those 2 blocks. 

I am known to take people to sketchy parts of town or sketchy hotel rooms. Ask my mom & Art about my terrible hotel room picking. 

Back to Show Dogs. They had the most amazing strawberry lemonade and blueberry basil soda. I haven't ever tasted anything like the blueberry basil soda in my life. They also make milk shakes with beer. That sounds 

Polish Dog with onion rings below

Italian Dog with fries below

Show Dogs also makes all their own sauces. 
I would go back to this place, but I would take Art with me. I think we might go on a Saturday sometime soon. He was VERY jealous of my adventure. 

Menu Monday

Menu for this week

Orange Chicken & Fried Rice - from Trader Joes
Bratwursts & Fries with gravy - from Trader Joes
Pizza 
Breakfast
something out of the freezer. Art really wants that freezer cleared out. I have been trying to clean that thing out, but it has been slow. He wants it cleaned out, so we cake 25 pounds of sausage to fill up the freezer.