Thursday, June 26, 2014

25 Weeks

How far along: 25 weeks (as of 6-3-14)

Maternity clothes: Yes! 
Sleep: Sleep was very good. 
Best moment of this week:  Feeling him move around. He moves throughout the day. I love feeling the kicks. 
Miss anything: I don't really miss anything. 
Movement: Yes, he is kicking away!
Food cravings: Veggies!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Certain smells get to me. 
Have you started to show yet: I don't have a stomach. I just look like I have gained weight. 
Gender: Boy!
Belly button in or out: in
Wedding rings on or off: on 
Happy or moody most of the time: Emotional this week
Looking forward to: Going to see a bunch of my friends in So Cal!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Expectations Ruin Everything!

Expectations usually end up disappointing someone. I had expectations of what I thought pregnancy would be like. It has been NOTHING like I expected. I expected to love every minute of being pregnant, love being able to gain weight, enjoy pregnancy once I passed week 12, because this was the moment I had waited for my entire life! I remember being a little girl dreaming of the day I would be a mom. Unfortunately all those expectations were a big disappointment. 

I recently told my mom I don't think I will ever be one of those women who says they miss being pregnant. Some people have told me they loved feeling the baby move inside of them. I do not love having him sit so low while using my bladder as a trampoline. I do love feeling him kicking higher up! I won't miss it though only because I would much rather have him here, so I can look at him to make sure he is safe. 

This is pregnancy number 10 for me. I thought once I hit week 12 I would calm down and enjoy being pregnant. I have had different worries or concerns the entire pregnancy. There are soooo many tests you go through and each time you worry will they find something. Even though I have made it to 28 weeks I still worry what if something goes wrong. I think that is a normal thing for someone who has had 1 or 9 losses. It is hard! That scared feeling in the back of your mind creeps in. Add in hormones and it can be a little worse. 

Would I do this again? Without a second thought! Every time we went through a loss I would think can I do this again? In a few months my heart would start to heal enough that I felt I could go through it again. I always prepared myself that the next pregnancy could result in a loss and I needed to be strong enough. I knew eventually though we would have a successful pregnancy. My heart always knew I would be a mom. I couldn't give up. I had some terrible things said to me by people who thought they were being caring. They would ask why I kept trying, maybe I needed to calm down and stop worry, maybe God didn't want us to have a child, there were lots of children that needed to be adopted and the nonsense continued for 5 years. It came to the point where I stopped telling people about a loss because if I had to hear one more crude comment I might end up in prison. 

Pregnancy is hard no matter how prepared you are, but there are some good parts to it. The second trimester has been one of the best. I FINALLY feel back to normal physically. This is the first time I have physically felt good since surgery in January 2013. If I could live in second trimester I would stay here forever. Someone needs to learn how to bottle this and sell it! I would buy it for a lot of money. lol 

My hair has been amazing. It is full, doesn't get greasy, I don't shed and it's shiny. I would lose handfuls of hair in the shower each time I washed it over the past year. It was awful! I was on a every 3 to 4 day hair washing schedule. Now I wash it every 7-8 days. This is one of the things I will miss terribly bad. I hate hate hate washing my hair. It is such a chore. 

I only have to shave once every other week. How fabulous is that! It's just as fabulous as not having a period for 9 months. Who cares if you bleed like a mother after birth. You had 9 months of heaven. lol

There are good things and bad things. You can't go into pregnancy with expectations or saying you will do certain things. I had plans to work out and eat healthy. lol What a joke! The first trimester I choked down what I could just to survive. The second trimester round ligament pain killed me when I tried to exercise. I had to walk like a granny if I just wanted to get a 1/2 mile. 

I have read so many blog posts about how wonderful pregnancy can be. I thought there needs to be a reality to what it is like. Heartburn, round ligament pain, gestational diabetes, peeing every 15 minutes, stretch marks, bladder used a trampoline, breasts the size of cantaloupes, worrying, looking fat instead of pregnant, sleepless nights, moodiness, crying one minute laughing the next, acne, fabulous hair, and the list goes on & on & one.  I have around 80ish days until my due date, but who is counting. Honestly I am enjoying every minute of this because I know this could be the first and last. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

27 Weeks

How far along: 27 weeks (as of 6-23-14)

Maternity clothes: Yes! 
Sleep: Sleep was very good. Sunday I actually slept through the night for 6 hours straight. That is almost unheard of for me without 1-2 bathroom breaks. 
Best moment of this week: Hearing his heartbeat and recording it. I love that I can listen to it anytime. 
Miss anything: not this week. 
Movement: Oh yes, every single day. He is quiet from the time I get ready to work until around 10am. Then I feel him until I go to bed throughout the day. Evening time he is very active. 
Food cravings: Taco Salad! 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular. I have been feeling queasy after I eat sometimes. It is strange. 
Have you started to show yet: Finally getting a rounder belly. Art cheered the other night he was so happy I am starting to look pregnant. 
Gender: Boy!
Belly button in or out: in. It is starting to get shallow. I never thought I would say that. 
Wedding rings on or off: I can't wear them at night, but I can wear them during the day. I really thought they were on their last leg. So far so good. 
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! 
Looking forward to: My due date!  lol I just can't wait for this little guy to get here!

Friday, June 20, 2014

24 Weeks

How far along: 24 weeks (as of 5-27-14)

Maternity clothes: Yes! I found some maternity jeans & capris at Babies R Us for $5 each. I wish I had bought another pair of the capris. They are super comfy and what a fabulous deal!
Sleep: Sleep was very good. 
Best moment of this week: Ultrasound of the little guy. He is growing just perfectly.  
Miss anything: Just vacation lol
Movement: Yes, it's almost daily
Food cravings: Orange Juice
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not this week
Have you started to show yet: Starting to show some
Gender: Boy!
Belly button in or out: in
Wedding rings on or off: on 
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! 
Looking forward to: working on the nursery

Thursday, June 19, 2014

23 Weeks

How far along: 23 weeks (as of 5-20-14)

Maternity clothes: Yes! I have one pair of black Rockstar Old Navy jeans that still fit. I am so glad I bought these!
Sleep: Sleep was very good. 
Best moment of this week: Enjoying vacation, relaxing on the beach and with family & friends
Miss anything: not this was vacation time!
Movement: Yes, he was very active after I ate steak. I think he likes beef!
Food cravings: Fish! Good thing because I ate a lot of it. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not this week
Have you started to show yet: Starting to show some
Gender: Boy!
Belly button in or out: in
Wedding rings on or off: on 
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! 
Looking forward to: Next ultrasound next week!

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

26 Weeks

How far along: 26 weeks (as of 6-0-14)

Maternity clothes: Yes! In the beginning of my pregnancy I bought a pair of black Rockstar Old Navy jeans. I figured I could wear them for a few weeks and then afterwards. Well I am still wearing them. They were one of my best purchases. 
Sleep: Sleep was very good. 
Best moment of this week: Having a soccer game inside me. lol He is kicking like CRAZY! The little guy LOVES beef. When I eat steak he goes bonkers.  
Miss anything: just my bed. I love sleeping in my bed. 
Movement: Yes! Saturday night he went bonkers! It scared me at first because I felt thud thud thud. lol
Food cravings: Steak!!!
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of cleaning supplies! 
Have you started to show yet: Starting to show some
Gender: Boy!
Belly button in or out: in
Wedding rings on or off: They are on their last leg. My fingers are starting to swell. There are times I can't wear them. 
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! 
Looking forward to: Doctor appointment next week. I am sure we will get to hear his heartbeat. Also entering the 3rd trimester! I can't believe we are almost at that point! 

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Happy Father's Day

The older I get the more I realized what a great childhood I had. My parents were very protective of us kids. They sheltered us from a lot which kept us innocent. I never had a fear of my parents abusing us in any way. As I have gotten older the relationship with my dad has become great. We have always got a long. I remember when things kind of changed I was in my early 20's. We started to develop more of a friendship and closeness that when I was younger. 

The majority of our phone calls are us laughing. We like a lot of the same tv shows, have crazy little sayings that probably no one else understands and like to be goofy. We also have really good talks about life. I know I can call him for advice, to vent, or just for a laugh. My dad doesn't understand he doesn't have to answer his cell phone all the time. There are times he will answer to say I have to call you back. Lacey and I ask him why do you answer if you can't talk? lol

Last night we were on the phone as we were watching Family Feud. We were commenting on these women dresses that were a terrible choice. He says look at her dress it's so tight it looks like she has a hernia. I was laughing so hard I was crying! 

My parents balanced each other out while raising us. When one was hard on us the other would usually talk some sense into them. lol I remember my mom got mad when I came home 15 minutes late one time and ground me for I think a month. It was the first time I had ever come home late. I know she was trying to teach me a lesson. I remember hearing my dad say a month? Don't you think that is a bit rough? I think it was reduced to 1 or 2 weeks. It was not reduced that night, but a few days later. Now there are times my dad was hard on me and my mom had to talk to him. 

Hanging out reading a horse magazine

Hey, look at all my Christmas gifts!!

How about the mix of plaid???  We do need to work on my dads wardrobe. lol 

I look around this insane world we live in and realize just how lucky I am to have a fabulous Fausha!!