Happy Mother's Day!

Mother's Day is a hard day for me. Most of the time I just want to stay in bed all day, cry, and forget about the entire day. It is very difficult to sit in church when all the mothers are asked to stand. There I sit in tears wondering why have I been given this off script path in life? See my script for my life was to be married for a year or two then have a baby. Realistically I knew we could afford 2 kids. My dream would be to have 4 or 5 kids. I wanted a loud crazy house full of snotty nose kids screaming through the house as I am trying to talk to my mom on the phone. God has had other plans for me. To be honest God's other plans have been difficult at times to accept at times.

I had decided before the start of the year, 2013 would be the year we would not focus on having a baby. Little did I know what was going to transpire in 2013. I am glad I went into the year with that mindset because of the off script path I was about to get. I never ever imagined I of all people would get cancer. Hard things happen in life, but cancer does NOT happen to me. I have more tests and scan ahead of me this year. My body has to recover from surgery and my thyroid has to regulate before we can think about having a baby.

I decided 2013 is the year Mother's Day is not going to make me sad. I am going to celebrate my amazing mother and mother in law. I am going to celebrate Amber's first Mother's Day. Kaleb and I made little foot prints out of salt dough to give her. 

My mother always remembers me on Mother's Day. She sends me cards/gifts each year to say Happy Mother's Day. It is very sweet of her and very much appreciated. This year she sent me an infinite silver ring. Over the weekend I received some of the best text by some of my amazing friends.

I have been blessed with an amazing mom who has always stood by my side. There are times I know she was shaking her head wondering what in the world I was doing, but as I made mistakes there she was standing by. I am so thankful she was able to come take care of me after surgery.

Happy Mother's Day!!!!