Friday, January 13, 2012

My biggest fear became a reality

On Wednesday I went for a walk during my lunch hour. I was so proud of myself because I had kept my heart rate up, walked faster than ever and burned a ton of calories. I came back to the office to eat my salad. I text Art about my walk. I felt a little cramp and thought something felt weird. I went to stand up and all of a sudden there is blood pouring out of me. It was like I turned on the kitchen sink. The floor was covered and my chair. The building has to get professional cleaners in to clean up my floor. It looks like a murder scene.




I had worn a cute new polka dot skirt and I was so proud of my outfit. I lifted my skirt up and sat down on my chair. I called my boss and asked her to come to my office right that minute. She comes in and I told her I am not sure what is wrong, but I am bleeding super heavy. I called Art and told him to come get me ASAP. I thought it was a fluke and Art would be able to take me to the hospital.

I decided to try to clean up, so I could go to the bathroom. This is when I realized it was more than a fluke. I couldn't even get to the bathroom without blood pouring out of me. I had to sit on the toilet. My boss called the ambulance. I told her to bring my stuff to me because I was not going back to my office. I didn't want the whole office to see me get carted away.

I waited in the bathroom. The fire dept arrived first. The building called it in as 3rd trimester miscarriage. WTF! The fire dept comes in with about 20 people. Once they realized they got rid of all but 2 people. Then the ambulance people arrive. I was sitting on the toilet because the blood wouldn't stop. It was so embarrassing having all those men in the stall with me.

The ambulance hooked me up to a bunch of wires, gave me oxygen, and started an IV. The first one they started didn't work. I have a HUGE bruise on my hand. We sat in the ambulance for about 20 minutes, while they took my information. I got a tour of SF backwards. The whole way there I could feel I was bleeding super heavily.

The nurse comes into the room and told me to get undressed. I had the BEST nurse Mindy. I stood up and the floor was covered in blood. She told me sit down, you are on bedrest and take off what you can on the bed only. The doctor was coming into the room and it freaked him out a little with the amount of blood. It was a huge clot about the size of a dessert plate.  Art arrived shortly thereafter. I was relieved to have him there.

The next 5 hours they would change the pads on the bed every 10-15 minutes. After I was there about 2-3 hours I started having cramps. Every time I had a cramp I would pass a big clot. Art started timing them and they were 2 minutes apart. Finally I asked for some pain beds. More doctors were coming in and pushing around on my stomach. I had 3 ultrasounds, 4 doctors checking things out. They gave me some morphine, which helped with the pain and I was able to relax.

The nurse came in to tell me I was pregnant after a urine test. I asked for a blood test to tell me what the HCG level was. She came back with the results of 10,000. I said that means I am 5-6 weeks pregnant. I was in shock. I had been having some health issues during the month of December, so I was shocked by this news.

I kept asking for water. I drink at least a gallon of water every day. I hadn't had any water for 5 hours. They gave me FOUR ice chips and said that was it until they made a decision. I thought I was going to thirst to death.  The doctor made a decision finally after 5 hours they felt it was right to do a D&C.  When they started setting up for the D&C I asked how much longer until I can have water. They were all laughing and said I was starting to make them thirsty. Art said I was babbling on & on from the drugs. lol

We were finally able to leave after 6.5 hours everything started we were headed home. I went home in 2 hospital gowns. I was stylin!! lol

I think I am still in shock from everything. One of my worst fears is exactly what happened yesterday. To have all that happen at work, be hauled off by an ambulance and bleed uncontrollably.  It is a day I won't ever forget.

10 comments :

Margo said...

I'm so sorry! What a terrifying experience. I hope you feel better soon....

Lil' Woman said...

Oh my word, I am so sorry girl.
What a traumatic thing to have to go through, especially at work.

~The Moses Family said...

Oh my word, Becky! My heart is broken for you. It hurts to know someone as amazing and inspiring as you are has to go through all of this. I wish there was something I could do to change this all for you. Just know you have my prayers. :(

~M~ said...

Oh Becky, I am so sorry for your loss. I'm so sad that you had to go through all of this while at work, it sounds really traumatizing. I'm going to continue to keep you in my thoughts. Hugs.

Maria said...

Becky ! I have never had that happen and i am soooo glad it was you and not me ! ;-) jk I am praying for you , I have been there many times myself and God alone got me through it . Love you girl and I wish I lived closer to bring you something ! maybe a new poka dot skirt ! ;-) You will get thru this and be stronger for it .

Maria said...

Becky ! I have never had that happen and i am soooo glad it was you and not me ! ;-) jk I am praying for you , I have been there many times myself and God alone got me through it . Love you girl and I wish I lived closer to bring you something ! maybe a new poka dot skirt ! ;-) You will get thru this and be stronger for it .

Crazy Town ND said...

I am just sad this keeps happening and that you got my bad genes...I had several DNC's and understand what its like...you are such a sunshine to our lives and life can be so hard! I love you, Mom

Cara @ The Boys Made Me Do It said...

I'm so sorry Becky.... I wish I could make it all better... my heart breaks for you and Art-- love you guys

Shelly said...

I found you through a rabbit trail on pinterest - I am so very sorry for your loss. I will say prayers for you and your dh.

Shelly said...

I found you through a rabbit trail on pinterest - I am so very sorry for your loss. I will say prayers for you and your dh.