My Great Husband!

Here is my husband who has been taking care of me for 2 days. He has gotten up with me in the middle of the night, brought me drinks, ran to the store, whatever I have needed he has been right there. What a great husband I have!

Family Pictures

We had family pictures taken last Sunday. These are the 2 that I like.

Excitement & Saddness

The past month has been filled with excitement and saddness. On October 27 I took a pregnancy test and it was positive!!! We were soooo excited! Our first appointment was on November 6. I had calculated everything and knew I should be 4-5 weeks at this point. At the dr appoinment the dr could only find a small sack about 1 cm. I felt in my gut at this point something wasn't right. The dr told us I wasn't as far along as I thought I was and he felt everything was on track.

On October 28 my Beta count was 808, November 6 Beta 8,000 and November 8 Beta 10,000. I was concerned because the number didn't double within 48 hours. The dr said to come back on Nov 30 and we should hear a heartbeat.

On November 19 I was at work. I went to the bathroom and noticed I was bleeding. I called the advice nurse, she set up a time for the dr to call me within 30 minutes. The dr called and said for me to come in at 1:30pm. I called Art at work crying because I knew I was in the process of a miscarriage. He said he would meet me at the house at 1pm and we could drive together. I left work and headed home.

We met with the dr for an ultrasound. The dr could only find an empty sack. My heart was so heavy! I had been so excited because finally my dream to be a mom was coming true. We had told our parents, Billy & Mandy, Lacey and Amber we were having a baby. Everyone was sooo excited. I knew these phone calls were going to be so hard. The grandma's were just bouncing off the walls with excitement. My poor mom and mother in law have taken this loss the hardest! I feel so bad for them.

We met with the dr in her office. She gave us 3 options on how to handle the miscarriage.
1. let nature take it's course and pass everything naturally
2. take some pills to pass everything within 24 hours
or
3. D&C

My first option was a D&C. They couldn't get me in until Tuesday. I really wanted this all to be over by Monday. I wanted to start the week fresh and enjoy our holiday weekend. I opted to take the pills. The dr explained that I would insert a few pills vaginally and in 24 hours everything should pass. She said you will experience some pain, so I am giving you vicaden and motrin 800. I asked her if I would even be awake to feel anything. She said if the pain gets too bad then you need to take another vicaden.

Last night at 9:30 I took the vicaden and motrin. At around 10pm I inserted the other pills. Midnight I woke up and felt like a mack truck had run over me! I have some pretty horrendous cramps from my monthly visitor, but this was about 10 times worse. It felt like someone was ripping my insides out. I hadn't ever experienced a pain like this! I took another vicaden to help with the pain. Shortly after I started throwing up. I threw up every hour until 7am. Nothing was taking the pain away. I couldn't sleep, lay down, stand up, nothing. The heating pad didn't help, took a bath nothing.

At around 4am I was able to doze off for a little while. Art had brought me a half of a motrin. That seemed to get the pain to subside a tiny bit. 7am I woke up grabbed the bucket and headed to the bathroom. That is when everything passed and my vomiting stopped. From 7am-9am I was able to sleep a little, but the pain was still horrendous. I was at the point of telling Art to take me to the hospital to get an IV with pain medication.

At 9am the last of everything passed and the pain went down to a dull cramping. Needless to say in 12 hours I went to hell and back. I can't believe that giving birth is more pain than what I experienced. I would NEVER recommend anyone to take the pills over a D&C.

It's over thank God!!!!! I am still taking some motrin, so I am a little drugged writing this blog. I have handled everything very well emotionally. I had prayed numerous times that if something was wrong that God would take the baby now and give me strength. Everything happens for a reason.

I have a wonderful husband who stood beside! He is my rock! I am not sure I could have done this without him. Hopefully 2010 will bring us another BFP!!!!

Countdown!

There are 12 days until my birthday and 38 days until Christmas. Let the festivities begin!!!!!

Smile!

On my way to work each morning there is a little old homeless man standing in the same place every day with the biggest smile on his face. Everyone morning we greet each other with Good Morning. On my way home he is in the same place again with a big smile. We say good night. This man always looks so happy. One day he had on a hoodie sweatshirt with a bunch of bling. He looked so proud of his new hoodie. It made me laugh.

Someone gave him a banana one morning and he was soooo happy! This morning I was thinking we all need to be more like him. Smile and greet people. I can have 100 things on my mind walking to work, but I always smile after I see him. If he can be happy and homeless I should be able to be happy.

All in 2 minutes

Every single day is an adventure working in San Francisco. The first month when I started working in the city I would email my mom every morning of crazy stories. Lately I have been reading books on the train ride, so I dont notice all the craziness.

Today I went outside at work. In my building is a day care. They have a play ground a few hundred feet from the building. They were lining up to come in for lunch. One of the little boys takes off running. He runs behind a basketball hoop hiding his face. The teachers are calling him...Wesley you aren't going to get lunch if you don't come with us. I cracked up laughing watching him running away. He just wanted to stay outside.

I turn the corner and there is a 60 year old playing hacky sack. Now I didn't even know people played with those crazy balls...let alone a 60+ yr old man.

The adventures you can have in 2 minutes on a San Francisco street!

1 Month & 3 Days

I will turn 29. I can't even begin to tell you how much I am dreading turning 29. Yes, to some people I am still young...BUT I have loved my 20's. I have learned more in these past 8 years than I could have ever imagined. Some of the most exciting moments and greatest accomplishments so far have happened. I know there are lots of great moments and accomplishments ahead of me.

I remember being a little girl thinking I can't wait to be 24-27 and how great life would be. I imagined as a young girl moving to a big city and living alone...check! All these moments I imagined when I was younger have taken place....except one thing...becoming a mother. I am not sure if that will happen before the big 3-0 strikes BUT I know it will happen.

2009 has been a rough year and such a great year. I feel this year I took more control of my life and did what makes Becky happy. I feel I have been working on that for the past 5 years. I have always been a fighter, but this year a whole new meaning of fighting took place.

I was thinking the other day how I can't believe I resigned from my previous employer and walked out. WOW was I thinking clearly when I did that? ABSOLUTELY!!!! It was the best decision I made, but one of the hardest. I have one life to live and it's not going to be miserable working some place I don't love.

Twenty Nine is about to come in a month.....what will year 29 bring? Maybe a house? Baby? New car? Hmmmm these are the exciting moments that could come. I have to make my last year in my 20's the best year.

Christmas Countdown

Do you know it's 63 days until Christmas???? How EXCITING!!!! Tonight I went to visit my dear friend Target....I haven't been to the back aisle where all the clearance goodies are held in way too long! I spent an hour going down each back aisle searching for all those must haves. I actually came out with some great deals. I can't share them since some are for Christmas. =)

I can't wait to start decorating for Christmas. My goal is to have all my shopping done by November 15. This weekend I need to pull out everything I have and see what else I need to buy. I have already gathered most of the Christmas lists. We need to take a picture for our Christmas cards. I would say I am half ways ready for the BIG event!!!!

This is my 100th post by the way!

Libby & My New Hair

Here I am with my new hair do and introducing Little Miss Libby...isn't she a doll! Libby is modeling her very first outfit.....I bought it for her when Cindy told me she was pregnant. Green turtle sleeper.

I decided the other day I was going to cut my hair....I cut 4 inches off and added a lot of layers. Here is the new hair do! I am not sure what I think of it. I haev gotten a lot of compliment and people thought I only added layers. Oh Lord hellooooooo didn't you see my hair was down my back??? People are oblivious!

Libby in another outfit I bought her. How cute are those leggings. She is just so adorable!!!! I bought one of her Christmas presents tonight. I am not sure I will be able to not give it to her right away.

A Smart & Final just opened by our house. The above picture is just a google image. I decided to go there tonight and buy some of the sale items. When I arrived they actually had such great sales, so I did all my grocery shopping. We pack breakfast, lunch 4 days a week and go out to eat on Friday. We make dinner at home 5 nights a week. In the past 6 months we have reduced the amount of times we eat out.

I normally shop at Food Maxx and spend about $120 for 2 weeks. Tonight I used coupons and saved over $40. I spent $77 for all our food for 2 weeks. I bought a whole chicken, chicken thighs, lots of meat, veggies, fruit....I bought 1 gallon of milk for $2 bucks. DEAL!!!!!!!

As I was walking out of the store I couldn't believe the cart was PACKED full and I spent less than $80 bucks!

Eeeek

I was features on My Mama Made It. Eeeekkk how cool!!!!
http://mymamamadeit.blogspot.com/2009/10/gossamer-collar-shirt-refashion.html

Tshirt Refashioning

I bought this tshirt yesterday at Old Navy. It was actually a tshirt dress. I thought this would be perfect for a refashioned tshirt. I cut it to the legth I wanted a tshirt. I used the rest of the fabric to cut hearts. I sewed each of the hearts to the shirt.

Alexis taught us yesterday at our class how to make this tshirt. I am so in love with it! I want to make a ton more. It was so simple too! The most time consuming part of it was sewing each heart on. I think it took me an hour to make.

Jcrew is selling these tshirts for $35 bucks. I made mine for $4 bucks. What a deal!

Tshirt Refashion Class

Yesterday was my tshirt refashion class. I had so much fun. Alexis is so talented! She is incredibly sweet! Here are the tshirts I made yesterday. Pictures didn't turn out very good. The shirt don't haev spots. My camera is acting up.

I added the flower today. I am not sure about it. I want to add something else to this shirt, but I am struggling. Maybe I need to add 2 flowers.

GIVEAWAY On Make It and Love It

I love the Glam Bag!!!!! Here is a giveaway on Make It or Love it! How cute is the Boo Bag!
http://makeitandloveit.blogspot.com/2009/10/new-sponsor-and-giveawayare-you-ready.html
Check out her Etsy site too.

What an Exciting Day!!!!

My very good friend Cindy had her baby today! Cindy found out in January she was pregnant and we were sooooo excited. Cindy's due date September 24. Cindy & Kurt decided not to find out the sex of the baby. Cindy and I were convinced it was a boy since day one.

Last night I called Cindy on my way home from work to find out how her doctor appointment went. She was over due by 4 days. She said they scheduled a c section for September 30. I asked her to tell Kurt to text me boy or girl afterwards.

This morning I sent her a text saying only 24 hours left. I received a text back saying Maybe not at the hospital now. WHAT?!?!?!?! So for hours I sat on pins and needles. I must have checked my phone 100 times a minute.

I received a text message a couple hours later saying It's a GIRL! Little Miss Libby has arrived. I am soooo excited!!!! I can't wait to go out this weekend and buy her a little dress. Kurt sent me a picture of her earlier today. She is beautiful! 9 pounds 2 ounces 20 inches long. She has the most ADORABLE chubby cheeks! I can't wait to meet her!!!!

When I walked into work this morning my boss was walking by the front door. I had my ipod on, so I couldn't hear a word she was saying. I turned it off and she was all excited. She said we heard from the client we sent an RFP and we are schedule to make a presentation next week. You are going with us to LA. YIPPEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! This was soooo very exciting for me. I haven't ever been involved in the process of acquiring new business. Next week I will fly to LA with my boss and the regional VP.

5K Breast Cancer Walk

Today Art and I got up at 6am to get ready for HERS Breast Cancer 5K walk. My goal was to finish the race in under and hour and NOT be last. We finished in 59 minutes. I jogged to the finish when I saw the time. I was determined for it not to say 1 hour. The walk was around Quarry Lakes in Fremont. It felt really good to finish the marathon for such a good cause. The money will help local women who are fighting breast cancer. There were so many survivors there. One lady said she is a survivor for 35 years. She was elderly and did the whole walk with a walker! AMAZING!!!!

Cancer survivors released doves
Doves circling over head

Art and I at the beginning of the race.

Tshirt Refashion Class

The first weekend in October Art always goes away with his buddies for lumber jack days. This year I was trying to plan something fun to do. I was just reading some of the blogs I subscribe too and read mymamamadeit.blogspot.com was offering a class in Santa Cruz, CA. It's a tshirt refashion class. I called the studio to see if they still had space and what I would need to bring with me. I just need to bring at least 2 tshrits. I signed up immediately! I love how "my mama made it" refashions clothes! I have been wanting to make tshirt with ruffles, so here is my chance!!!!!

http://mymamamadeit.blogspot.com/2009/09/my-mama-made-it-news.html

PINK!!!!!

Thursday night I went to see PINK!!!! It was an AMAZING show. I can't believe how much energy that girl has. She had dislocated her shoulder, but she ran around that stage all night long in high heels!

Fruits of our Labor

Remember my post on my "city garden"? Well here are some of the tomatoes that we just picked. Art also planted potato peels and 2 dime size potatoes have popped up.

Tail Light

I am happy to report my left tail light has FINALLY been replaced!!!!! I think it's been 4 yrs ago someone rear ended me and smashed my tail light. I covered it in red tape and honestly didn't think about it again. My FIL has been on my case to get it fixed. I ordered a tail light from Ebay a few months back. Accidently had it sent to "the dark place". I was told by H R that they sent it back to the company because they had no idea what to do with it. OBLIVIOUS!!!! The company never received it back.

I ordered another one last week. It arrived DH put it on and it looks AMAZING! I will no longer look like a red neck in my red mustang.